Wednesday, October 20, 2010

A Month to Remember

This month I have been able to visit family and friends from Georgia to Chicago and it has been great for many reasons.  I have been going through a serious transition period after coming out of an emotional time in my life and this trip has made me gauge how much more I have to do.

 It always amazes me how God shows us where we are and what we need in such a gentle and beautiful way; often through and/or with those that truly love us.  This way, the necessary change happens as painless as possible.  I have learned to thank Him daily for those I love and for those that love me.  I am now more aware of how much I have missed my family and friends since moving to California.  However, I love living here, for obvious reasons as well as not so obvious ones.  I find California to be a transitional place for me.  A place that shows me that any and everything is possible.
It is place where many people make a living in the arts and in other nontraditional ways.  Lending its forgiveness to the dreamer, but not so much to the dreamer without plan..  A place where the free-spirit person can thrive and feel comfort in their authentic selves. For me it is validation, and after I am comfortable in that skin, I can go and live anywhere and feel confident in who I am and what I want in my life.

 I am still on this journey of discovery, and it is a beautiful one. Therefore I will stay in California until I am solid in my idea of what I want my life to be.  However, being here also shows me the importance of what I had prior to moving here; showing me how to keep the good of the past with the good of the future.  It amazes me how life unfolds when you are paying attention. This month long trip has also been somewhat of a mnemonic of my need to have and maintain relationships with family and friends.

 How important this nurturing is in my life, the support, as well as the celebration of me.

Only true love from true friends can provide you with this JOY.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Chicago, Illinois

I use to go back and forth from Savannah to Chicago when I was young.  My mother's sister lived there and it was going to the big city to me.  My aunt was extremely protective when I would visit, so we only did the touristy things and go shopping. It was not until this last visit that I was able to see what a beautiful city Chicago really is.  I had no idea how beautiful the architecture was there.  Even though I probably would not have appreciated it before now.  I am really in awe of how my girlfriend new the history of the various buildings in the downtown area.  I remember going to Marshal Fields, which is now Macy's, and amazed at how large it was. Well I was in the big city. 

My girlfriend, whom I met in college is from Chicago, actually she is from a sub-burb called Lake Forest, but she now lives in the South Loop. From where she lives you can walk to Michigan Ave., Lakeshore Drive, and State Street, where there is an abundance of shopping and great restaurants.  She has been trying to get me to move to Chicago for many years, but it never happened.

 In the last few years, I was always afraid of the winters there.  Yes they are bad enough to make you afraid if you are not use to them, and sometimes when you are use to them.  My Aunt has since passed away, but her daughter is still there with her family. My cousin has thought of moving away from Chicago because of the winters and because she is so far away from family, but I think she has resigned to spending the rest of her life in Chicago, because it is what she knows.  I don't get the feeling that she loves the city as much as my girlfriend does, but she seems to be very proud of Chicago.
It would be hard to leave sunny California and move to Chicago, but it is not impossible, because there is so much more there that is addictive.  Even though, when they are having sub-zero weather, in LA it may be 55 degree and that is nice.